Where is that sweet and loving boyf of mine ? Now he has become so offensive and violent . I really wanted the old him back but it looks like its totally impossible . He doesnt seem to know how much effort I put in to our relationship . Each and everytime I ask for break it hurts my heart too . I know long distance rs isnt easy so I wanted to give up as I dint wanna waste his time but he took it as me having another guy outside . While I was in singapore I cancel all my friday night activities just for him afraid I couldnt wake up on saturday as it was his only home leave day every week . I asked him to reach home by 10pm daily not because I am a demanding girlf , but its for his own good , because I love him . If I dont would I even bother ? Yes , I admit he does whatever I said but he seem to be like having lots of complain and unhappiness inside his heart . I really didnt wanna give up on this relationship but it seems kind of pointless to continue . I love him , yes I do . I can guarantee I love him more than anyone else but is he loving me as much ? I am so sick and tired of it .